Now I’ve hit the sweet spot

So the eye thing.

If you meet me I will become very conscious not to stare too much.

In the days of yore, when I could see a face clearly. I didn’t really realise I was living the life. Them were the days…

You’d meet someone, say hello talk to their face confidently. Took it for granted without a second thought. Why would I?

These days you meet someone and I tend not to look at their face much. Not confident doing that. Concentrating and being self-conscious too much to really relax initially. If I’m with them long enough then I’ve looked enough to see them and make out what they look like (ish) what I would have seen in the past straight away.

I’m conscious my eyes don’t look right or I’m hiding this condition from you. Or both.

It depends how near to me you are. There’s a sweet spot where I can see better slightly further away. As this, remember, affects my central vision.

The peripheral further away is a lot better. So if someone’s close and I don’t know them, I will back off or my eyes start trying to focus the hell out of themselves, by looking at each of your eyes. Embarrassing. It shouldn’t be. But it is.

By being further away I can just look without my eyes darting about.

The weird thing is.

That really close sweet spot I thought had gone… is back!

So now I’m obsessed with trying to see peoples eyes clearly.

(Stick with me on this…)

Sometimes when I put my makeup on. Looking closely in the mirror. A sweet spot appears where it is amazing clear. Don’t know how.

When this happens I just look. Hoping I won’t blink. It’s quite bizarre for me to see that clearly now. I mean like 20/20 clear.

This is the only time it happens. No blur. Like I used to see. For a few seconds.

It’s like a little gift. Makes me happy 😊

Now I’m wondering if this could happen to see someone else’s eyes?

Bit weird I know.

(Really try and hang on there for this…)

But I’ve not seen anyones eyes clearly for a least a year now. That’s with my glasses on!

It would be strange for me to ask the people close to me if I can find out.

Would have to be someone very close to test this. I mean face to face literally.

I’m not sure if it will ever happen as I already know it would be the cringe of all cringes wrapped in a cringe.

I know my mates and my sister will say… do it with me.. But I don’t think I can.

I hope some of my eye buddies understand this or this all just looks really odd!