Category: Sight Loss Course

I’ve received my letter from the sight course. So I’ve got a place on it.

So I’m going for a 2 day course on 31st March and then again on the 7th of April.

UPDATE:- This was cancelled due to one of the organisers having covid. Will be arranged at a later date.

I won’t let this define me. It’s scary. Probably putting far too much emphasis on this really, but for someone who still hides it from strangers, it’s a big step.

It made me upset.

I shouldn’t feel embarrassed I hold things upto my face. (depends what mood I’m in. Who I’m with) Stare at you for longer than I should trying to see your face, your eyes.

(I could write a blog posts about the eye thing. In fact I will…)

I shouldn’t but I do. Will this ever go away?

I want to be me.

Not this other hidden person who lives in blurry world.

Cut to me… doing a post that I made the teas for everyone and just helping other people out. Knowing me that’s probably true ☺

Anyway… Info in the letter include stuff to find out about in their days there are…

🟢 Eye health, emotional support.

🟢 Daily living skills and technology

🟢 Leisure opportunities within the district

🟢 Mobility, orientation and public transport

So they’re you go. Worst thing is, I’ve got to turn up as there are only 10 places.

I know me. ☺

So I’ve just had a lovely phonecall from the District Sight Aid in the area where I’m from.

Funny how you start thinking of things and they appear. Happens alot to me lately.

They think I would be suitable for their sight loss course run over 2 days end of March.

It’s a small group of 10 people.

It’s about picking up tips I may have not thought about and having a cuppa (always up for that) making friends.

Even though we will be at different stages, we can listen to one another.

To be honest. I will listen to them. This is my outlet for my eyeballs. I cannot be there moaning about myself when I will probably be the one helping everybody, making sure they’re OK.

I’m not ready for it. But I’m off. This is well out of my comfort zone. I want to avoid this situation at all costs. If there was an award for trying to hide an issue… I would win it right now 

I explained I’m not ‘that bad’ but the man I spoke to said he’s a similar age and has similar problems so it maybe good to come along and check it out. He will be there, it’s a mixture of ages and stages. I’ve not to feel a fraud (he feels like he does sometimes)
It’s easy to feel that way about our sort of condition as nobodys heard of it. People can’t understand why I’ve picked your fiver up you dropped, but I’m having real trouble seeing something close up. Especially when you are faced with people who are really struggling. You don’t feel right about your place there.

So he’s sending all the bumf.

I’m just going to do it for the future me. Not get upset. I still don’t believe I will ‘get there’.

But I’ve believed alot of things that aren’t true seemingly.

I’ve had to face alot of hard things at the moment. Stuff I don’t want to see (ironically) or hear. I have a great sense of loss for alot of stuff I’ve held very close to my heart. One of them, I always will. 

But, I think it maybe a good thing to do, so I’m signed up.

Also… It was mentioned that appropriate sunglasses for our eye conditions will be there to look at on the course.

This will be the holy grail for me an would be for many others that loves getting out when the sun’s shining, but isn’t necessary friends with the sun ☀ It’s my main annoyance to be honest. I don’t suppose they will do my beloved #standard tortoiseshell ones will they?

I need some of those. That are that dark they block the light, but still so I can see enough to walk about. The style I’ve always worn so I feel I’m still me.

I’ve searched blumming everywhere for them.